Day 9

Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted....
I have to be honest the one person I felt bad about drifting apart,, we have found time for each other and talk more than we did for a long time.... I luvs ya Hubley....
Many things in both of our lives made us have separate lives, but always a heart with a spot in it for the other...
I so love her and her girls..

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Day 8

Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like horribly.....
I wish I was more worried about hurting others than others hurting me....
I let people hurt me.. I wish I could turn the other cheek.... It is not easy for me at all.
I know if I am not kind to others that they in turn will do that to me.. but what I do not like is when I am trying sooo hard to be kind and I get slapped across the face (not literally).

If I could find the person who wrote me notes in high school that literally has crumbled my inner life... I would love to see and talk to them as to WHY........ I know people look at me now and don't really see that it is crumbed, but you have not lived with my emotions..... and if you get to know me (REALLY KNOW ME) you would understand.

I would also like to meet up with some people that I know who have hurt my family and me and let them know what they have done... The only reason I don't is that it would hurt their family and them... and that is not the person I am...(there is a little bit in me that does want to tell them what they have done so that it would hurt them, but what good would it really do?????) There are times,,,,,, I wish they would hurt like I have... but would they really????? Most people who hurt others don't have a clue they have hurt you and when they find out they think you are just looney.....They do not see it as hurting someone.....
enough enough enough......

Day 7

Someone who has made your life worth living.....
OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH WOW I can do this in ONE WORD>>>>>>>>
FAMILY

This was taken in August, 2003....Last major family photo of the Williams' family before Dad got sick.
Back: Andrew, Donald, Colette, Christian, and Alexandria
Front: Lisa, Mom, Dad, Dalton, and Halceyn
Dalton's baptism...... FAMILY FAMILY FAMILY of MEN....
Back: Christian, Jake, Blaine,Wayne(dad), Uncle Ed, Uncle Gary, Eddie, Scott, Robert, Steve, and Bro. Worthington (bishopric)
Front: Donald, Andrew, Uncle Neldon, DALTON, Uncle Duane, and Bishop Cochrane.

Mom and son..... I don't know where I would be without him.....He is my joy, my pride, and most importantly the love of my life....



Our new family..... Halceyn , Wayne, and Dalton..... of course at our favorite place LOL
Loving the new bigger family: Steve, Robert, Wayne, and Scott then Dalton and HalceynWilliams' family
Back: Jake, Wayne, Colette, Christian, and Donald
Middle: Alexandria, Halceyn, Lisa, Andrew, and Anna
Front: Dalton and Grandma Marie L. Williams
Mom, Colette, and me...... I LOVE THEM SOOO MUCH

Fobert Family
Back: Sharon, Richard, Wayne , and Halceyn
Front: Maryam Fobert and Leonard Fobert Cousin Dianne, and us Williams' girls.... We sure have fun together.....
I honestly can say I would not be where I am today without all these people and many more family members that I do not have photos of.......

Day 6

Something you hope you never have to do....

Well I have gone through a lot that I hoped I would NEVER have to do...
I was told I would have a very slim chance of ever having children.., but the Lord helped me through that.....I LOVE YOU DALTON
I think so far in my life the LOSS of my Father was the most horrible thing I have had to deal with... it has been about 3 years and it still hurts just as much as it did the week we found out he was sick.... Not having my dad to turn to, his hugs, and his kisses has been just a hole in my heart.....
I have lost loved ones before and NO I don't want to go through it again even though I know it is inevitable..... I will miss my MOM just like my dad, and I never want to lose a sibling or their children..., but we all know there is a time for everything... I just hope I can deal with it the way it would make my Father in Heaven proud of me...
I think the ONE thing that really would get to me is being LEFT ALONE.... I think that is the one thing that really bothers me...I do not want my MF to leave me alone... I don't want to do that.
I am so glad I have the gospel plan of the LDS faith.

Day 5

Something you hope to do in your life.....
Well there are a lot of things I want to do, but I will not post all of them...
I want to go to Hawaii.... that is my dream right now....
In my lifetime I really would like to have a HAPPY Marriage and HOME life...
I want to be the key in having my sons life be the happiest it can be....
I want to take my son to all the places in the USA that I love and that He would like to see...
I would love to take my son to place out of the USA, but not sure which first.... I have been to many and there are some I want more than others....

I always wanted to go on an LDS adult mission,,, but the way economics are going I don't see me ever retiring and able to do that...
I guess the ONE thing I REALLY want more than anything else in life is HAPPINESS and the long lasting LOVE that my parents had.....I just want that for eternity...( just going to be a dream).......

July 24,2011

I finally got my son back after him staying a few days with his Aunt Colette.... We went and ate at Joe's Crab Shack and D wanted these balloons made for him.. Pirate that he is...lol

We took a side trip... We were on our way to Idaho for the BLESSING of our new Williams' addition. We decided to stop off in Brigham City and look at the new temple being built. When we got to Rexburg after picking up my mom in Rigby, this is the room we got... I loved it.

Another view of the room.. We had so much space.. It would have been fun to have more enjoy the time with us.. Dalton, Mom and I had a wonderful time. Mom watching Dalton swim.Dalton swimming... he had so much fun.. There was a family of adults that let him join them in beach ball volley in the pool.. HE LOVED IT...After the blessing at church we were able to go to one of Alex's aunts home.. This picture is of Mom, Jake, Alexandria, Carsten, and Dalton...Not a true 4 generation,, but it is OUR 4 generation... Carsten David Kent, Marie Larsen Williams, Alexandria Katherine Kent, and Donald Charles Williams....Dalton outside enjoying his lunch and finding new friends with Alex's cousins... and their kids... THANK YOU Eckersell's.....

Day 4

Something you have to forgive someone for.......

I am not sure how this will sound, but how do you forgive someone who has never asked for it?????
I have people that were in my life that have really hurt me and it has caused a HUGE problem in my life... it has affected me in all aspects....
When I was young I was judged so much because of my girlish figure.. I was made fun of daily because of my weight.... Some of you may say it was just in my mind...but how is that when I had others that heard the words... and How is that when I have written proof of things that were said..
I got a few letters in high school that were put in my locker that were NOT kind, Yes, I have kept them and cried every time I have read them.
Once out of high school, I had a very hard time looking in the mirror and not seeing what they said I was.. I still have that issue today... I don't trust that people can like me for me when all I see is what I was told I was...
I also am not sure I will be able to forgive people who do things purposely to hurt others..... I think it very sad..
When I see people not take care of or love their spouse like they should I am hurt to no end...
I feel that the spouse that you have chosen should be your number ONE priority....
I am trying to work on forgiving some, but Like I have said it is hard when you have not been asked for forgiveness. It is also hard to forgive when people keep telling lies to cover or not telling the truth to get things out in the open....
I know SILLY, but maybe some of you who read this will have ides.....
Halceyn

Day 3

Something you have to forgive yourself for:.....

Long and hard what to say.. I have so many things that I want forgiveness for., so where does one start. I guess the most important is to know that My savior has paid for all my sins so I need to forgive myself for those wrong doings also. Also, I am not sure it is forgiveness of myself I need to work on as much as forgiving others for what I feel they have done to me...so maybe my next post will be easier..

I have tried to go back as far back as I can to see maybe someone that I have really hurt to a point that I still need to ask their forgiveness.... I can't... Usually when I find out that I have offended or hurt them I will go and see what I can do to make it better.... I am one that DOES NOT like when others do not like me....

I just have to remember that I am human and make mistakes. So therefore, I need to forgive myself when I have done something to hurt me....

I know I have not done the best for my body, but I have gone to find help with no help out there as of yet... still trying and trying.....

halceyn

Day 2

Okay, I did not forget... I am just having a really hard time with this one...
SOMETHING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF>..

I know a lot of people who know me don't really know me..
This is the most difficult thing..

OKAY I LOVE MY NOSE... I have the smallest nose, but I love it
I love that I am very responsible... I love that FAMILY comes first in my book.... I love that I was able to have the chance to be a mother....
I am not a person that can go indepth about a subject, but I try.
I love that I am willing to try a lot of new things....

Okay this is getting yucky now... Thanks for reading...halceyn

Washington July 2011

Visiting Donald and Lisa in Marysville, Washington
Marysville here we are... after a 14 hour drive we made it to the Best Western.... YEAH
We went and saw one of the nicest hotels ... Tulalip Hotel and Casino The front fountains were fantastic... NO those are not real LOL....Some of the Totems in the Hotel... They were so cool to read about and look at...

The next day we went down to Seattle... Space Needle was cool to look at. We did not go up in it or get very close because we spent our time at the Science Center...

We saw this fantastic Earth... It showed where all the current storms and earthquakes were occurring... It was so cool ...

Dalton with the Utah Dinosaur (Allosaurus) ...........
We were able to see the coolest Michael Jackson Laser show... Dalton now wants to learn the Thriller Dance....

Deception Pass Wayne, Colette, Halceyn , and Dalton .....
Isn't that Bridge cool????
Dalton under the bridge....
Wayne walking down the stairs to cross the street under the bridge
Pictures of the Sound..
Looking down over the bridge...
Mom getting back in the car after Colette took her across the bridge....
Dalton and Aunt Lisa playing TOTEM.... Aren't they cute????
At the Beach..What a cool statue..
Dalton learning how to skip rocks with Wayne and Aunt Lisa...
Mom and Colette watching the others skip rocks...
Halceyn laughing at a comment her mom made She can't remember what was said though... Driving the car onto the Ferry....
This was the Ferry we were on... It was cool...
Lighthouse at Mukilteo ,,,,
Halceyn spinning Dalton on one of the toys at the park.... He loved it....
Troll Bridge... Dalton climbed up , Colette trying to help him down, Halceyn observing..... Guess where Wayne is and Mom is?????
Colette trying to push the VW BUG out of the Troll's hand NO GO COLETTE>>>>lol...
Wayne, Halceyn , and Dalton at the Troll Bridge.....
Pikes Place ... Fish throwing....
Dalton giving Pikes Pig a squeeze....
We all ate at Ivars... We tried all types of fish... Cod, Halibut, Salmon, Shrimp, and good old clam chowder soup.....
Dalton feeding the seagulls his left over fries... they would eat out of his hand, but he was way TOOO nervous....
Went to a Mariner's game... Safeco Field, Seattle, Washington..
It was a great game even though the Texas Rangers beat them.. It was cool to see all the past players .....
We went to church and spent time with Donald, Lisa, Andrew, and Anna.... We had a very enjoyable visit and would do it again..
Mom stayed with Donald for a few extra days...
We drove home, but took a lot longer... Did some SIGHT seeing (bathrooms are way clean LOL)
We did go to a Darigold Cheese Factory... SQUEAKY CHEESE>..
Got to Tooele and slept the night...
It is good to be home.......