Day 15

Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.....
Unlike some , Diet coke or coke or some type of drink is one that most might say, BUT NOT ME(okay maybe a frazzle?? jk )... No it is not food( everyone has to have this).... No it is not being single.(I have done this, obviously I don't enjoy it, but it is a way of life)...I can't put my son, because I have not tried living without him and I hope I never have to.... No it is not the Gospel, I have never turned my back from it or tried living without it.(not willing to take the chance)....
SO what is it that I could not live without??? that I have tried?:??
I know many things I do not ever want to live without, but I have not tried it..

Unless, I can say my father.... I am currently living without my father.... He passed away 3 years ago and I so don't like this.... So I will live each day the best I can so that I can be with him again some day.......

Day 14

A HERO that has let you down...
Do we even know what the word HERO means????
Well here I go to explain that:
WEBSTER DICTIONARY:
1.)a: a mythological or legendary figure often of divine descent endowed with great strength or ability
b: an illustrious warrior
c: a man admired for his achievements and noble qualities
d: one who shows great courage
2.) a: the principal male character in a literary or dramatic work
b: the central figure in an event, period, or movement
3.) an object of extreme admiration and devotion; idol

One a and b refers to Mythology and Legend... Since I really don't believe in those things it is hard for me to find a hero.... I did love the story of King Arthur.. though. I also loved Aphrodite, but I will never be her.
The 2 a and b refers to literature and drama. Most of my heroes there are fictional....
I have to say my favorite characters of women are both from the Taming of the Shrew, I love the Tenacity of Kate, and the Loving of the Bianca.....BUT since Shakespeare characters do not exist in real life I have to keep going on my hunt for a HERO...
So for number 3, something that I admire and devote to,,, well some would look at me and say it MUST be food, but that is not true.... I would have to say "Frazzle" A SLUSH drink... I love slushes and would have one everyday if I could.... Inspite of this, it is NOT my Hero.
So we will go back to 1c and 1d.....I admire many for their achievements and noble qualities... I also admire many who show great courage. There are many Historical figures such as: Abraham Lincoln, Thomas Jefferson, John F. Kennedy, Rosa Parks, etc.. are all amazing individuals who have achieved much. I know that some of them did not always stay faithful to their spouses, but Everyone is human - not that that gives them the freedom to be stupid though... I just know that I have qualities that could be looked down upon also, so please look at the good things...
WHEN it comes to everyday heroes, I can list my grandparents, my parents, my sister, my brother and his family, my son and my husband.... I could list many of my friends as well.. AND YES, sometimes I have been let down by those I love, but I don't believe any one of my heroes to be vindictive or rude.. We are all HUMAN, and make mistakes, but they are all good people.
So my challenge was to find someone that has let me down I can't say that I have answered that.. but I have chosen to see the good in them and to honor them for their qualities...

Day 13

A band or an artist that has gotten you through some tough days......
Growing up I listened to my siblings music... Hermin and the Hermits, Barry Manilow, Dan Fogelberg, ABBA, Neil Diamond, Osmonds, STYX ....
As I got older I did not change much...
I do like to listen to a lot of country, jazz, hip hop, pop, soft rock, and such. I have NEVER liked RAP....
When I went through the loss of my first husband, the Osmonds and the Carpenters were the only 2 groups I could really listen to.
I have since found LOTS of people I like to listen to, but I think what I like most are the lyrics that make me feel good. I would have to say the LDS HYMNS and CHILDREN HYMNS are the ones that really speak to my heart...
I am really in to harmony so when I hear a great voice I could listen to that forever.... Thanks to my family for exposing me to great music while I was growing up....

Day 12

Something you never get compliments on....
I use to say my SEXY BODY,,, but I get that from manfriend now....
So let me see.....
My housekeeping, skinniness, being a perfectionist...

Which none of those will I ever get compliments on.. So I will not hold my breath...

Day 11

Something people seem to compliment you the most on... Well,,,, Long blonde hair,,,, nice hour glass shape,,, funny personality... Now if all of those were true that would be nice....

I am not really one that believes in compliments so I cannot answer this question at all....SORRY folks...

I guess one thing I love is that I love fix a spread for parties.. I do get compliments that I am a family person like my father and a cook like my mother....
I love that..
I get compliments from my family, but they are biased because they are my blood... Having all of my family in my life is truly the greatest compliment anyone could have.....

Day 10

Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know......
Not sure if I need to let go or if someone needs to let go of me....
I do believe that everyone comes into your life for a reason... sometimes we don't understand that reason, but we grow and learn eventually...
I know there are a few people in my life that are difficult to be around. We all have bad day. Often bad weeks or months. Sometimes it is even a year. We all hurt and struggle, but life is about how you deal with them...
I think my hardest is when one is stuck in a depressive mode or mood... They suck the life right out of me......
I don't think I despise anyone to the amount of not wanting them rid of, but out of my life would be nice...
I do have a couple that have stayed in my life longer than should have, and I HAVE NO CONTROL of getting them out of my life....but I do have control how much contact or how I let them affect me....
I know I have to learn to live and let live and not to let others bother me...

Day 9

Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted....
I have to be honest the one person I felt bad about drifting apart,, we have found time for each other and talk more than we did for a long time.... I luvs ya Hubley....
Many things in both of our lives made us have separate lives, but always a heart with a spot in it for the other...
I so love her and her girls..

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Day 8

Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like horribly.....
I wish I was more worried about hurting others than others hurting me....
I let people hurt me.. I wish I could turn the other cheek.... It is not easy for me at all.
I know if I am not kind to others that they in turn will do that to me.. but what I do not like is when I am trying sooo hard to be kind and I get slapped across the face (not literally).

If I could find the person who wrote me notes in high school that literally has crumbled my inner life... I would love to see and talk to them as to WHY........ I know people look at me now and don't really see that it is crumbed, but you have not lived with my emotions..... and if you get to know me (REALLY KNOW ME) you would understand.

I would also like to meet up with some people that I know who have hurt my family and me and let them know what they have done... The only reason I don't is that it would hurt their family and them... and that is not the person I am...(there is a little bit in me that does want to tell them what they have done so that it would hurt them, but what good would it really do?????) There are times,,,,,, I wish they would hurt like I have... but would they really????? Most people who hurt others don't have a clue they have hurt you and when they find out they think you are just looney.....They do not see it as hurting someone.....
enough enough enough......

Day 7

Someone who has made your life worth living.....
OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH WOW I can do this in ONE WORD>>>>>>>>
FAMILY

This was taken in August, 2003....Last major family photo of the Williams' family before Dad got sick.
Back: Andrew, Donald, Colette, Christian, and Alexandria
Front: Lisa, Mom, Dad, Dalton, and Halceyn
Dalton's baptism...... FAMILY FAMILY FAMILY of MEN....
Back: Christian, Jake, Blaine,Wayne(dad), Uncle Ed, Uncle Gary, Eddie, Scott, Robert, Steve, and Bro. Worthington (bishopric)
Front: Donald, Andrew, Uncle Neldon, DALTON, Uncle Duane, and Bishop Cochrane.

Mom and son..... I don't know where I would be without him.....He is my joy, my pride, and most importantly the love of my life....



Our new family..... Halceyn , Wayne, and Dalton..... of course at our favorite place LOL
Loving the new bigger family: Steve, Robert, Wayne, and Scott then Dalton and HalceynWilliams' family
Back: Jake, Wayne, Colette, Christian, and Donald
Middle: Alexandria, Halceyn, Lisa, Andrew, and Anna
Front: Dalton and Grandma Marie L. Williams
Mom, Colette, and me...... I LOVE THEM SOOO MUCH

Fobert Family
Back: Sharon, Richard, Wayne , and Halceyn
Front: Maryam Fobert and Leonard Fobert Cousin Dianne, and us Williams' girls.... We sure have fun together.....
I honestly can say I would not be where I am today without all these people and many more family members that I do not have photos of.......

Day 6

Something you hope you never have to do....

Well I have gone through a lot that I hoped I would NEVER have to do...
I was told I would have a very slim chance of ever having children.., but the Lord helped me through that.....I LOVE YOU DALTON
I think so far in my life the LOSS of my Father was the most horrible thing I have had to deal with... it has been about 3 years and it still hurts just as much as it did the week we found out he was sick.... Not having my dad to turn to, his hugs, and his kisses has been just a hole in my heart.....
I have lost loved ones before and NO I don't want to go through it again even though I know it is inevitable..... I will miss my MOM just like my dad, and I never want to lose a sibling or their children..., but we all know there is a time for everything... I just hope I can deal with it the way it would make my Father in Heaven proud of me...
I think the ONE thing that really would get to me is being LEFT ALONE.... I think that is the one thing that really bothers me...I do not want my MF to leave me alone... I don't want to do that.
I am so glad I have the gospel plan of the LDS faith.

Day 5

Something you hope to do in your life.....
Well there are a lot of things I want to do, but I will not post all of them...
I want to go to Hawaii.... that is my dream right now....
In my lifetime I really would like to have a HAPPY Marriage and HOME life...
I want to be the key in having my sons life be the happiest it can be....
I want to take my son to all the places in the USA that I love and that He would like to see...
I would love to take my son to place out of the USA, but not sure which first.... I have been to many and there are some I want more than others....

I always wanted to go on an LDS adult mission,,, but the way economics are going I don't see me ever retiring and able to do that...
I guess the ONE thing I REALLY want more than anything else in life is HAPPINESS and the long lasting LOVE that my parents had.....I just want that for eternity...( just going to be a dream).......

July 24,2011

I finally got my son back after him staying a few days with his Aunt Colette.... We went and ate at Joe's Crab Shack and D wanted these balloons made for him.. Pirate that he is...lol

We took a side trip... We were on our way to Idaho for the BLESSING of our new Williams' addition. We decided to stop off in Brigham City and look at the new temple being built. When we got to Rexburg after picking up my mom in Rigby, this is the room we got... I loved it.

Another view of the room.. We had so much space.. It would have been fun to have more enjoy the time with us.. Dalton, Mom and I had a wonderful time. Mom watching Dalton swim.Dalton swimming... he had so much fun.. There was a family of adults that let him join them in beach ball volley in the pool.. HE LOVED IT...After the blessing at church we were able to go to one of Alex's aunts home.. This picture is of Mom, Jake, Alexandria, Carsten, and Dalton...Not a true 4 generation,, but it is OUR 4 generation... Carsten David Kent, Marie Larsen Williams, Alexandria Katherine Kent, and Donald Charles Williams....Dalton outside enjoying his lunch and finding new friends with Alex's cousins... and their kids... THANK YOU Eckersell's.....

Day 4

Something you have to forgive someone for.......

I am not sure how this will sound, but how do you forgive someone who has never asked for it?????
I have people that were in my life that have really hurt me and it has caused a HUGE problem in my life... it has affected me in all aspects....
When I was young I was judged so much because of my girlish figure.. I was made fun of daily because of my weight.... Some of you may say it was just in my mind...but how is that when I had others that heard the words... and How is that when I have written proof of things that were said..
I got a few letters in high school that were put in my locker that were NOT kind, Yes, I have kept them and cried every time I have read them.
Once out of high school, I had a very hard time looking in the mirror and not seeing what they said I was.. I still have that issue today... I don't trust that people can like me for me when all I see is what I was told I was...
I also am not sure I will be able to forgive people who do things purposely to hurt others..... I think it very sad..
When I see people not take care of or love their spouse like they should I am hurt to no end...
I feel that the spouse that you have chosen should be your number ONE priority....
I am trying to work on forgiving some, but Like I have said it is hard when you have not been asked for forgiveness. It is also hard to forgive when people keep telling lies to cover or not telling the truth to get things out in the open....
I know SILLY, but maybe some of you who read this will have ides.....
Halceyn

Day 3

Something you have to forgive yourself for:.....

Long and hard what to say.. I have so many things that I want forgiveness for., so where does one start. I guess the most important is to know that My savior has paid for all my sins so I need to forgive myself for those wrong doings also. Also, I am not sure it is forgiveness of myself I need to work on as much as forgiving others for what I feel they have done to me...so maybe my next post will be easier..

I have tried to go back as far back as I can to see maybe someone that I have really hurt to a point that I still need to ask their forgiveness.... I can't... Usually when I find out that I have offended or hurt them I will go and see what I can do to make it better.... I am one that DOES NOT like when others do not like me....

I just have to remember that I am human and make mistakes. So therefore, I need to forgive myself when I have done something to hurt me....

I know I have not done the best for my body, but I have gone to find help with no help out there as of yet... still trying and trying.....

halceyn

Day 2

Okay, I did not forget... I am just having a really hard time with this one...
SOMETHING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF>..

I know a lot of people who know me don't really know me..
This is the most difficult thing..

OKAY I LOVE MY NOSE... I have the smallest nose, but I love it
I love that I am very responsible... I love that FAMILY comes first in my book.... I love that I was able to have the chance to be a mother....
I am not a person that can go indepth about a subject, but I try.
I love that I am willing to try a lot of new things....

Okay this is getting yucky now... Thanks for reading...halceyn

Washington July 2011

Visiting Donald and Lisa in Marysville, Washington
Marysville here we are... after a 14 hour drive we made it to the Best Western.... YEAH
We went and saw one of the nicest hotels ... Tulalip Hotel and Casino The front fountains were fantastic... NO those are not real LOL....Some of the Totems in the Hotel... They were so cool to read about and look at...

The next day we went down to Seattle... Space Needle was cool to look at. We did not go up in it or get very close because we spent our time at the Science Center...

We saw this fantastic Earth... It showed where all the current storms and earthquakes were occurring... It was so cool ...

Dalton with the Utah Dinosaur (Allosaurus) ...........
We were able to see the coolest Michael Jackson Laser show... Dalton now wants to learn the Thriller Dance....

Deception Pass Wayne, Colette, Halceyn , and Dalton .....
Isn't that Bridge cool????
Dalton under the bridge....
Wayne walking down the stairs to cross the street under the bridge
Pictures of the Sound..
Looking down over the bridge...
Mom getting back in the car after Colette took her across the bridge....
Dalton and Aunt Lisa playing TOTEM.... Aren't they cute????
At the Beach..What a cool statue..
Dalton learning how to skip rocks with Wayne and Aunt Lisa...
Mom and Colette watching the others skip rocks...
Halceyn laughing at a comment her mom made She can't remember what was said though... Driving the car onto the Ferry....
This was the Ferry we were on... It was cool...
Lighthouse at Mukilteo ,,,,
Halceyn spinning Dalton on one of the toys at the park.... He loved it....
Troll Bridge... Dalton climbed up , Colette trying to help him down, Halceyn observing..... Guess where Wayne is and Mom is?????
Colette trying to push the VW BUG out of the Troll's hand NO GO COLETTE>>>>lol...
Wayne, Halceyn , and Dalton at the Troll Bridge.....
Pikes Place ... Fish throwing....
Dalton giving Pikes Pig a squeeze....
We all ate at Ivars... We tried all types of fish... Cod, Halibut, Salmon, Shrimp, and good old clam chowder soup.....
Dalton feeding the seagulls his left over fries... they would eat out of his hand, but he was way TOOO nervous....
Went to a Mariner's game... Safeco Field, Seattle, Washington..
It was a great game even though the Texas Rangers beat them.. It was cool to see all the past players .....
We went to church and spent time with Donald, Lisa, Andrew, and Anna.... We had a very enjoyable visit and would do it again..
Mom stayed with Donald for a few extra days...
We drove home, but took a lot longer... Did some SIGHT seeing (bathrooms are way clean LOL)
We did go to a Darigold Cheese Factory... SQUEAKY CHEESE>..
Got to Tooele and slept the night...
It is good to be home.......